Sebuah lagu

Di tengah malam yang hening
Ku mengerutkan kening di depan laptop ini
Menulis lirik dengan irama hiphop ini
Bukan kritik yang ingin kutulis, namun curahan hati
Melow bukan style ku tapi, malam ini kan kutumpahkan kegalauanku agar ia mudahan mati
Waktu itu aku sedang omegle-an, di depan laptop seperti biasa di tengah malam
Tak sengaja bertemu dengan mu ,ber-chatting, membahas rambut, membahas politik bahkan sampai temenan
Di FB lalu berlanjut, kau curhat padaku yang bukan siapa-siapa sampe kau semamput
Tapi akhirnya cerita cintamu tak berjalan mulus
Walau kau tulus, tapi itu membuat mu terlihat seperti seorang anak yang habis tahu kalau ia tak lulus
Sedih, ku hibur kau, tapi dalam tidur ku bilang ku juga mau libur
Tak terasa waktu berjalan dengan begitu cepatnya
Dan aku tak menyangka bahwa walau ku tak pernah melihat mu secara langsung
Darahku mengalir lebih deras setiap chatting berlangsung
Mungkin ku harus beli hape SAMSUNG untuk mengalihkan ingatanku tentang mu
Sampai ia terhapus oleh rentang waktu
Sampai ia mampus di tendang rapuh
Sehingga tak ada kata 'idola' di otak ini
Dan ku bisa melangkah bebas di luar kotak ini
Kukunyah kau, ku ludahkan kau keluar
Enyahlah....

Taekwondo IMT

Last Wednesday, I was chosen to be the next leader of my lovely UKM. Well, actually I need that formality to if I wanted to take control of the system of the organization. Alhamdulillah I finally got it. But I can not be relaxed after I got this position. I have to think about the organizstion all the time now. I have to make sure that everyone get taekwondo lesson well and that the Sabeums will get paid enough for the trainings they give. I also have to make a condition where the members feel free and relaxed but while we are training we get serious. I've to make sure that they will love our lovely UKM. I have to show more affection and attention. I think that's the biggest part of being a leader. A leader have to know and feel every member's condition rather than just ordering some orders.
I want to make everyone get close to each other. Well, it will happen by the time, insya Allah. After all, I just arrived back home after I practice today. We were practicing in the middle of the lake in campus. There is a bridge where we can relax and doing things there, it is a big space. We were there since the afternoon until twilight. It is a refreshing place for doing practice and we should do outdoor practices more often I guess. Maybe every Sunday :)
After all, I hope that everything will be alright. May Allah guide my actions and also my heart.
And not only for this, but in my everyday life.

Ambition that has to be controlled

Ambition is one of so many things that motivate us. Something that keep us spirited at what we are doing and keep us having intentions in living. But, from ambition can be born a catastrophe, if the ambition doesn't become reality or in other words, if the ambition become failed, the one who have the ambition could get depressed, having bad temper, having an arrogancy, or even worse...going crazy.
So, it is important to have a balancer. And I think it's God. Yeah, religion make us think not only about now and later (in a short context) but also for 'later' (the afterlife). What will we be if we died? We gon' be nothing, not worthy, even being burried in a graveyard. So I just want to say that besides being so spirited of our achievements, we also have to control our ambitions, and if they don't go as well as we want them to be we just have to let them go. Let them be what they have to be. It's called what destiny is. And that is one thing that we must accept. But I didn't say that we have to give in, we just don't have to push ourselves too much, that's all.

A relief

I am happy of hearing something from my friends's mouth. I finally heard them saying that they want to be someone in the future, and that they have some plans for their own future. Eventhough I haven't seen them making a profitable project or a training that was relevant to something that they desire, their spirit for achieving their dreams are still something that make me relieved. Why? Because for the past year, I have tried at least few times to make them conscious about how old we are now and how close we are until we gon' have a family and we gotta have to work. Before then, I want us to have great skills in our land, designing. But they kept playing and playing and wasting times so much. Eventhough they have been making a band and I can say that the band is successful I am still not sure that they could make make money from that band. Well, some of them have already been a famous singer and band before, but I don't think that the band that they just made would get any more popular and successful, neither can make profits if they don't take it really serious.
But it doesn't matter now, cause just by hearing them having some plans for their future just have made me so happy. And now I want to concentrate more on my projects, my comics :). I hope that my dream could be a reality too :) Amin